drugged.

so i mentioned earlier on the phone with julie about the past couple of nights & how i've been sick this week & have been taking medicine as much as possible. one of the medicines i've been taking is supposed to help with sleeplessness. now for someone as sober as me, i don't know much about any sort of intoxicated state of mind. however, i believe these past few nights is a bit of an example. i vague remember the nights where my ex would take sleeping pills & just kind of be out of her mind in a way. so with the aide of these medications, i've noticed slipping out of sleep briefly & feeling completely out of body or something. it's weird. i just remember trying to move & my body not feeling like it was connected. hard to say. it's just weird. i guess this is why i never wanted to get involved with anything bad & always kept my life clean. not really a fan of not being in control of my body.

yup.

in other news, the take today stuff is completely mixed. i also started working on a bit of my solo stuff. i'm pretty stoked just because of all the ideas that have been flowing since tracking last night. now i just need to be not sick. goodnight.